February 9, 2011

7 Febrero 2011

Things are looking up:

I made alpaca nachos last night to watch the Super Bowl with other volunteers, fun AND yummy!

Again, I went to catch the 4am comvi (not bus, far more uncomfortable) and this time it came. Happy, I am back at site with the water filter PC sent me (yay! No more brown drinking water. Now we catch rainwater from the roof and this pretty little stone filter detoxes it!) Today I get to do laundry and when I am done the whites might actually be cleaner than when they went in!

The Rotary Club of Arequipa is interested in funding the nutricion lectures we had planned for this month but had to postpone due to lack of funding, so my good friend and fellow volunteer John and I are headed to Arequipa tomorrow to present.

Since I am headed to Arequipa, I get to have a much needed visit with my loving enamorado.

And, to top it off, today is my beautiful now 14-year-old host sister’s birthday. For some strange reason I thought the celebration would be similar to my host father’s birthday. Instead of herbs, alpaca bones, and Earth offerings, there were about 20 adolescents in the house dressed to the colca nines dancing to the hottest hits on the radio. It was strange and fun to be dancing around like a fool with my students, but we all had fun and I hope it builds confidence in them for me.


I have to admit, tonight was the first time I saw Roxanna as a young woman. Sounds silly and cliché, but she didn’t wear her traditional hat tonight, and she put on a nice shirt under a pleated jacket. She really looked lovely. She has always been the most responsible 13-year-old I have ever met, but tonight, she was a young woman, looking her best, and greeting guests with a grace I rarely see in the heavily traditional woman here. Their strength always outweighs any elegance they might contain in their hard lives. But on her birthday this evening, Roxana carried a poise that sparkled in this rainy canyon night.

Happy Birthday, Dearest Roxana.

6 Febrero 2011

There is a transportation strike, and I am trapped in Chivay, unable to get back to my site.

Last night I went to catch the only bus I was told was running at 4 am and it never came. After an emotionally exhausting week (we had to turn away 10-30 patients every day) I am forced to sleep in a freezing cold, uncomfortable hostal. This morning was supposed to be my big community diagnostic presentation to the Madrigal municipality, but instead I am twiddling my thumbs 2 ½ hours away from my site.

I am literally losing my shit. I have so much to do before the school year starts again and I am 5 hours away from internet and communication in one direction, and 2 ½ hours away from my people. If I could just get to one of those two places I could be productive, but no, instead I carry around a backpack full of dirty clothes. Wait, what? Dirty clothes? Yes. Very dirty clothes. Because 1) I have been traveling for a week 2)it is the rainy season and if I did wash them they would take days to try and 3)I only own about a week’s worth of clothes I carry around a backpack of dirty clothes. As if not being able to bathe isn’t enough.

Tim is going to the hot springs. I am going. I am going to relax. I am going to love it. Fix me oh glorious volcanic waters.

5 Febrero 2011

The dentist campaign has come to a close!

Over 200 people served in the canyon. It was a beautifully smooth week for the dentists. Special thank you to Doctor Tom, Belinda, Melissa, and Donna from the United States. Thank you for taking such a leap out of your comfort zone and donating your time and resources to my neighbors, family, and friends.

I will let the photos speak for themselves…










Roxana came in while the campaign was in Madrigal. I talked her through what was going to happen because they needed to fill one tooth and pull another. Her frightened eyes did all the talking as she nodded, “I am going to go back to the other dentist and translate unless you need me.” She just stares. “Would you like me to stay here?” She nods vigorously andI am glued to her side for the next two hours. She was a trooper and now has a beautifully clean smile!

3 Febrero 2011

My blunt, headstrong, taurus nature is not something to be messed with. Perhaps that is why the first sloppy kiss I got in Peru was from the family bull after a hard day’s work, he and I have a connection, I am telling you.

Peace Corps training beat that out of me a bit. Over and over they remind us that we are THE representation of Americans to hundreds of people here. A political figure, with every action observed and gossiped about. We are on the job 24 hours a day 7 days a week. The government’s pawn in an international, beautiful project. We are taught to bite our tongue, not share our personal opinions often, and do things that make ourselves uncomfortable so the people we are serving feel content. I have learned to smile and nod better than I ever have in my life. And, for this, I do believe that I have acculturated extremely well into my community, and have been invited to more and learned more than I ever could have wished already. However, what Libby calls that “firecracker” in me is being stifled. This exploding half lovely half craziness is being dulled. As I asphyxiate myself a little to better my work in my full time job here I have begun to apply that to my personal life and my conversations with Americans and Peuvian peers. Slowly, I have become this smiling, agreeable, genial, sociable, compliant, consenting, twit. That is being read as a weakness and I am being treated as such. In my attempt to make everyone around me comfortable, they can not see why I deserve the respect I am used to receiving.

Forefront in my mind now: balance it.

I must find the equipoise between being uncomfortable and being demanding. There are times when I am handed food where I just need to eat it no matter how horrible the flavor. Other times, it really is best to turn away the poorly treated, home made, fermented corn blah that is going to make me sick the entire next day. You have no idea how hard it is to say no to a Peruvian woman offering you food.


2 Febrero 2011

They say that Peace Corps is riddled with life changing realizations.

Some you can predict: cold showers are something you will just never get used to, or that you really aren’t as tough as you thought you were.

Some are less predicable: like, who knew I have a strong distaste for alfalfa? Or, that I really am content alone for hours in a room with nothing but a book and my gohonzon, I don’t need tobe going a thousand miles an hour all the time.

I had a life-changing realization this week that brought me to tears more than once.

It was the first time in service that giving up floated through my mind, and it wasn’t because I didn’t think I could do it, it was because my hands were tied.

When I set out to climb an impossible mountain, I set my goal for the top. Even if I am told that I can only make it to 5,000 feet on this particular mountain, I set my eyes for the peak. Then, if I have to stop at 7,000 feet I am satisfied. I know I did the best that could be done. Even if I have to stop at 5,000 I know I have my all. I need to be sure to surround myself with people who function this way.

If I am working with someone who knows that only 5,000 feet can be reached, and doesn’t want to not enjoy themself and sets the goal for 4,000 feet I am probably going to have a nervous breakdown. It is only one climb, one week that you will remember forever. I say give it your all, endanger yourself a little bit for the beauty of the story and the richness of the experience. Especially, if you are doing good for the mountain on your journey.

Life changing realization: make sure you are volunteering with people who aim for the top, even when they know it might not be possible. It isn’t that I don’t respect those who take care of themselves, that truly is the smart thing to do. It just isn’t really me. Even though it is stupid, and me breaking my own back 5 years ago is proof of that, it is who I am, who I forever want to be, and how I accomplish the biggest successes in my life.

There have been multiple points in my life when my naivety and optimism have been put on trial. And each time, I refuse to become bitter. I grab a tighter hold of the impossible. I am going to keep my grasp firm as long as I possibly can. I have the utmost respect for those who protect themselves and those around them, I need them around me to keep me healthy every once in a while. But don’t you dare try to keep me down when I am up.


Especially don't mess with me when I am teaching

1 February 2011

Today I felt a flush of emotions as I watched the dentists make decisions.

In a situation like this, when you have more need than you can possibly handle there is a choice each doctor must make: Do you provide a triage-like service by curing what is the worst in each mouth and calling in the next patient quickly? Or, do you spend time on each mouth until it is perfectly clean and beautiful to the best of your ability?

There were both kinds of dentist in this campaign. I left the day deep in thought wondering which direction I would lead if I were a dentist. (long stretch, I know)

I found myself leaning towards working in each mouth until it is as clean as I can get it. Mainly because we are here in this particular campaign because these people don’t have access to dentistry. If we were to only perform triag, the patient would still need to seek out a dentist in the near future, something they can’t afford and probably wont do. So, in essence I wouldn’t feel like I had been any help at all, only prolonging the inevitable. But, producing as clean a mouth as possible might help them avoid seeing another dentist for years if they are taught how to keep their teeth clean.

But… what do I know. I am no dentist.



What I do know is that this campaign lacks sustainability. I need to meet with one of the directors of HBI tomorrow to express my concerns for it's lack of attention to the huge educational need here. If we 1) teach the people here how to keep their mouths clean, we won't need as grandiose dental campaigns and people can keep their teeth 2) in the meantime, we need to make campaigns cyclical so they happen more often and all those who need to be attended to are.


31 Enero 2011

After an entire night of nervous tossing and turning I finally just got up at 4 and began getting myself around for the first day of the dental campaign.

You might be asking what it is that I had to do with this dental campaign considering the fact that I am not up on dental at all.

I community organized.

HBI brought the dentists and the funding (woot woot!).

Quechua Benefit and HBI helped get the permissions from a National and State level (the brains and experience behind the campaign planning).

Peace Corps (yours truly) pushed the local permissions through so we could use the space in each pueblo’s health post with municipal support. I helped Quechua Benefit decide where to go based on community interest, need and accessibility. QB and I also got vans and housing donated for the dentists, then advertised like crazy.

It was quite an experience for me, because my now good friend, Alejandro, from Quechua Benefit taught me a ton about the system and how to build a campaign, with all the permissions you need, from scratch. And because I live in the canyon, I was the body that followed up in person with each nurse living in the health posts (at least twice, most locations three times).

In some towns the nurses were extremely excited about helping us and making the space provided for us accessible. Others, didn’t want the responsibility and weren’t quite so easy to work with.

We chose to begin the week with the towns farthest from the central city and work inward for a handful or reasons (eg. smaller populations that would be easier to start with, and if transportation is impossible due to the rains we can go to a closer town and travel to the ones farther away later in the week, etc.). But, we also took on the challenge that we wanted to go to towns that had never been serviced before. Usually, the citizens of the pueblos need to travel 1-4 hours by car, donkey, or foot to see a dentist. Our goal was to bring the dentists to them. Now, the reason there haven’t been medical campaigns in these towns is not only because of the long travel time, complete lack of resources like electricity and water, or because the people have so much need you couldn’t possibly help them all. It is because for some weird combination of reasons getting the paperwork to go through for the permissions or getting nurses to cooperate was a particular challenge. We wanted to serve these most under serviced areas with the biggest challenges and HBI gave us their blessing.

Our goal was successful. We did have to have one site change due to a complete lack of a nurse at all in one of the health posts on all three of my visits. But, we switched to a site that still has a huge need.

Our housing was donated by a Spanish governmental organization like Peace Corps (but not at all like Peace Corps) that has a little commune in Chivay. Four dentists, one hygenist, three assistants, and three coordinators/translators arrived in Chivay last night. The dental team brought everything with them from scrubs, to drills, to a generator, to water bottles. They even had foldable dentist chairs. All of this was organized by the dentists themselves and HBI. I have to say the equipment van was a pretty one even though the dentists still felt a huge empty space when it came to the advanced equipment they are used to in The States.

At 5:30am we all piled into the passenger van donated for the week by Medical Ministaries International. After a bumpy 2 hour ride we landed in the small village of Pinchollo. My stomach ached because no one was answering my cell phone calls to the health post. I worried (almost as much as my grandmother worries about me) that the nurse wouldn’t be there to open the doors for us and we would be left to serve the population on the dirt street.

But, she was there. Not overly compassionate or helpful, but she opened the doors and smiled when I remembered her name. She was my biggest challenge of all the sites we traveled to. In my first visit to her post I presented the campaign to her in detail, this was after QB and I had secured all the permissions from her superior. After explaining the details for about half an hour and feeling that the conversation was wrapping up she said, “It sounds fine, but I can’t confirm I will be here to open the doors for you that day. I have other priorities.” I about head butted the woman. I put a smile on my face and made an effort to kiss her butt, then wrote down her name and made sure to remember it the day we arrived. I got just the smile I wanted. She was very patient to watch us take over their space.

About 40 patients later they had performed a handful of extractions, fillings, and cleanings. The dentists had a car stall on their way back to Chivay, but I was in the equipment van scaling the muddy rain-ridden canyon to Madrigal to secure the space for the following day. As the dentists were pushing the van on one side of the canyon, Hubert, our driver, and I were waiting for the river to lower so we could cross in the van. Everyone arrived safely back in our bunks in Chivay about 4 hours later. Exciting start to the week!