Welp, it is just about time to start.
I mean seriously.
I have lived in Madrigal for almost three months now. It is time to write my community diagnostic and begin my work. I have spent months now getting to know the town and planning (pretty darn well I think) what I am going to do, and now we have reached the point where I have to actually start doing.
And that, ladies and gentlemen, scares the crap out of me.
What if everything I do is a flop?
What if kids don’t sign up for my programs?
What if the teachers don’t like my talks?
What if my programs don’t work and I end up not teaching the kids anything?
What if the kids just don’t like me?
This doubt choked me up today. It was almost as if all of the pain and disappointment of the year to come was compressed into my little Adams apple ready to burst. Expectation is just waiting to blow up in my face. There is so much potential, can I fulfill it?
You are amazing, woman! I know you're going to rock it girl! Can't wait to Skype later, I LOVE YOU!!
ReplyDelete